It’s summer and time to get some summer clothes.  Shopping for clothes does not hold very enticing prospects for me.  So, in short… I hate shopping for myself.

When you’re a big girl like me, then you understand that the clothes available to you in the real world (as in not online) are pretty bleak and more often than not very unappealing.  Heck, you wouldn’t even expect your mother or grandmother to buy those clothes.  So let’s face it ladies…. shopping kinda sucks when you’re big.  Nine times out of ten, unless you have a cute store tailored to plus sizes, you’re stuck in the world of online shopping.  Online shopping is great, except when it is your only option.  Know what I mean?

So, I went on this task with a heavy heart.  Before trying on any clothes, I was already running different plus-size clothing websites in my mind.  However, I had a bold moment and decided to try on pants that were one dress size smaller.  I expected to be disappointed.

I was wrong.  They fit!  They didn’t fit as well as I would have wanted them to but I was able to slide them on over my rear and button and zip them up.  I felt like an Olympic Gold Medalist at that moment.  Then I felt bad for being sick and being off program for the last 2 weeks.

This no guilt thing is hard to do.  Especially for me.  Because the thing is, I want to be smaller but yet, habits are hard to break.  I always hear people say… “If I can do this… you can do this too!”.  It is sort of cliche in its own charming way.  But I have to admit, that this rings true in my situation.  If I can do it… even half-assed… then anyone can do it!

I’m stoked that i’m down a pant size!  Being down a pant size is like extra inspiration and motivation!