Sometimes I think I need some professional counseling.  It all just seems “too much” to handle.  Especially right now.  My mind is a never-ending source of thoughts that just won’t let me be.

After my trip last week, I have come back home feeling confused about stuff.  I may or may not have mentioned in thishere blog the fact that I suffer from depression and possibly ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder).

I have this idea in my head that I am meant to forge ahead in this life and be successful.  I define success by having a strong family and a good job.  I am trying to start a business but find that I am overwhelmed by all of the details.  What do I do first?  Husb suggested that I make a list of importance, but to me… it’s all important.

So instead of following through… i’m taking a break and latching myself on to the next big idea.  For once, I just want to finish something and follow-through with my goals.

My uncle will be moving in here soon with his two kids.  Husb and I are helping him out for a short time while his new house closes.  In my heart of hearts, I know that I am doing the right thing by helping.  And I *want* to help.  The probelm is, My mind starts to shut down and I feel overwhelmed.

When I feel overwhelmed everything slides backwards and I dig myself into a hole that becomes deeper and deeper.

The thing is, I feel really alone right now.