Weight loss is 90% mental and 10% food and exercise.  I started my weight loss journey on October 10, 2008.  Since then I have lost and then gained 11 pounds.

I am right back where I started.  I don’t feel like a failure.  I feel like a work in progress.  Various things happen in my life and at the core of my being I feel unworthy and shy at best.  I also have a tendency to put the needs of others before my own.  Because the truth is, I get a life-high from helping others.

However, at the end of the day, I skip over myself.  Because I don’t think I am worthy of that attention.

So here I am now.  Really taking an inventory of things and have decided to surround myself with a support system.  A big part of my support system is a virtual world made up of inspiring bloggers, and social networks filled with people who are on the same journey or at least, have been where I am now.

This time, I dusted off the old exercise bike and dragged it back into the house.  I have re-commited to Weight Watchers and will not stop until I reach goal.

I’m not perfect.  I am a work in progress.

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