Things here are less-than-ideal right now. I find myself struggling to stay on track with my weight loss. My life right now is inconsistent, ever changing and up in the air. In other words, I am in limbo.
Most of this is due to the fact that we are moving. Packing boxes and such are strewn about. My house is in a current state of chaos. To be honest, it drives me batty. My house in disarray leaves me feeling like I am in disarray and that life in general is in disarray.
There is this idea in my heart right now that I should *wait*. We haven’t been given the 100% green light on anything so I am sitting in *wait*.
Lately, I have really been struggling to keep myself in a good mental space with the weight loss. Over the past week and a half, I have all but ceased journaling my food choices. And for me, because i’m not writing down what I eat, I feel a little lost. To be honest, it is no one else’s fault but my own. And now i’m struggling to get myself back on track.
To make matters worse, I have only been able to get in 2 days of exercise this week. My ankle is very badly sprained. It spontaneously gave out on me while I was carrying my 18 month old to the car. It twisted under and then my whole body weight fell on it. My son went flying through the air and hit the side of the van. It was like a scene from out of the movies. Thankfully, he wasn’t hurt (just very very scared).
On the plus side, I have found that I have to up my intensity now on workouts. My heart rate doesn’t reach the 80% rate as fast as it used to. Shoot, even something as simple as picking up a toy on the floor would shoot my heart rate up to 80% once-upon-a-time. And I am taking better care of my appearance. I’m even looking into all natural and also the best wrinkle creams out there.
Aaaand the good thing about having a sprained ankle is that I can blog. Blogging has this wonderful effect on me as it helps me to look at my situation and see what I can do to improve it.
So I have reassessed my current situation and as I see it, there are 3 things that need to happen right-now:
1) Start journaling immediately
2) Allow my ankle to heal (in a no-guilt fashion)
3) Strive to eat as clean as possible.
Anyway, that’s my life up-to-date. I am 16 pounds down (I had a great weigh-in on Monday!). I don’t expect next week’s weigh-in to be that great; but as I said before, this is a journey and not every moment is going to be this inspired thing. kwim?
So how do YOU get through the hard parts of your journey?
Kellie-
This can’t wait. Kick that thought right out of your mind. I would suggest reading my posts that I’ve written the last few days and ESPECIALLY the one I write tomorrow; it is about how when life throws us a curve ball and things change it causes us to want to give up! STAY WITH IT! YOU CAN DO IT!
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@tiffany: Tiffany… thank you thank you thank you!!!
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That sounds like it was a horrifying mommy moment!
Your 3 goals sound perfect. I hope you heal quickly. Congrats on the 16 pounds.
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that fall sounds so scary! i’m glad the little one is ok and i hope your ankle mends quickly. nice job catching yourself going off-track and refocusing!
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Don’t wait. It’s fine to reassess what you are doing, find ways to stay active safely while your ankle heals, and not stress. But the last thing to do is just wait because you are already doing it. You can do this! I know that when life’s stresses hit you hard it is so tempting to wait, but if you do wait then you may lose ground and you don’t want that!
Thanks for the great graphic on the Gym In A Bag! I did the drawing today and am posting the winner tomorrow!
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I’m sorry to hear about your ankle!
I hate moving, for that very same reason!
Your goals sound GREAT!
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There will always be a reason to delay, to not make changes. Ultimately, those delays, those reasons, no matter how valid they may be are truly one thing: excuses. You started this process for a reason. What is that reason? Remind yourself.
Cheers,
Missa
LosingEthel
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Thanks for sharing your challenges–this post speaks to me. Change is hard and can throw things out of whack. I know that when I or my kids get our of our routines, it can throw everything for a loop. But it doesn’t have to. You have a choice, right? It’s your decision, right? (I’m kind of talking to myself as I write this really). Good luck as you continue the good fight. I think you are doing great!
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Kellie, I’m sorry I’m so late to this, the last few days have been hectic for me and I’m just catching up on my blog reading.
I think you are doing great so far. We all go through these times where life gets in the way. You have a lot on your plate right now, but I think the first thing is that you realize that something isn’t right and you know how to correct it.
Just jump back on the train and let’s do this together!
And I’m sorry to hear about your ankle, that has to be tough. Are there any exercises that you can do that don’t involve your ankle? Maybe lying leg lifts, or visiting a local pool? Hang in there girl, I know I miss your posts when you’re away.
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