Weird.
A few months ago it seemed so easy to focus on this journey. I could literally see myself losing the weight and the weight seemed to come off rather easily. Everything clicked in my brain and as Katie J. might have mentioned in one of her comments — I was in a good head space. (Or did Zan say this? I can’t remember.)
Now… I find myself at a stopping point. The move, new — very demanding classes, the kids and various house issues have left me feeling drained and unfocused.
I am supposed to be moving on to phase II, but in realty I feel like i’m here at an embarrassing stopping point. And for me, it is embarrassing. I generally shoot for the stars and expect the amazing results (of course, I usually work hard for it as well). But with the weight loss journey? Well, that seems to be the horse of a different color. The more stressed I became, the more I slid backward. I tried really hard not to at first but then incidents kept piling up like an endless full basket of laundry. Exhausted I gave in and started the old slide-a-roo back to the place I didn’t want to be.
I’m not giving up… but I need to know how to get back on the horse and stride forward. Highly emotionally charged situations have always been my stopping point. And believe me when I tell you that this is the most stressed out I have been in awhile. To the point of literally feeling like I have to drag myself out of bed every morning.
The move, all of these changes are GOOD things…. but I feel SO sad. Is it the stress? Is it my resistance to change? Or do I just plain think about it all too much?
I want this. But I feel like my head is not in the game. How do I overcome this?
I don’t think it’s a stopping point. At least, not really. I think it’s a pausing point.
Right now, your MIND is saying “STOP!” It’s stressed. And only you know the real reasons why that is the case.
It helped me a lot to stop beating myself up when I thought/wanted to be further along than I am in my weight loss journey. When I stopped being mad or frustrated with myself is when I realized that I really needed soothing. Maybe I needed a night to myself. Maybe I needed to confront a bully. Maybe I needed to sleep more. Whatever it was, when I stopped TRYING harder, everything became easier.
Whatever it is, know that this is a pausing place – not a stopping point. You will come back to this. You CAN do it…you’re just in a holding pattern right now. And that? Well, it’s okay too.
You’re doing great…even if it seems like you’re not getting anywhere. You’re tapping into your feelings and questioning your actions. THAT is a huge step all of it’s own.
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This might be a really good opportunity to practice maintaing your weight. That is not easy to do either. I know how you feel though. sometimes trying to force it when our mind’s not in it can have an adverse reaction. I think you should give yourself some breathing room.DOn’t go back to the old ways, just try hold on to what you’ve done until you can get your head back in the game.
You WIll do it. Maybe set a deadline for yourself and then hop back on..
Keelie
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I think those comments offer great advice. I can only add support. And a huge internet hug! And understanding – you are not alone. Many of us, including myself, have been in in similar place although different circumstances. Hang in there!
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