Not weighing myself over the last couple of weeks has lead me to think about making changes to my current plan. As of right now, I count my points. And I like counting my points for the most part. BUT… I am grappling with an addiction to carbs and sugar. I think this is the reason for the back and forth tango I have been doing between weight loss and weight gain over the last 3 weeks. (or heck, if I am to be extremely honest over the last few months).
I have noticed that while I am counting my points… I haven’t changed my diet as much as I should. I don’t get enough fresh veggies and fruit. There I said it. I have tried to incorporate that into my diet. I have tried to do the “clean eating” thing. But I have found that it is difficult to do. And I need to do it. It is an essential part of changing one’s life for the healthier. Am I right? I enjoy veggies and fruit… but I don’t always have a *taste* for them. Urgh.
I’m up three pounds. I am not surprised. I am back at 301. And i’m disappointed. Sure… as with anything in life… there are reasons. But I can no longer use those reasons as a crutch. And I do… use reasons as a crutch… that is.
I am so-so-so tired of moving forward and then sliding backwards. I feel like I *should* be further along than I am. Not just weight wise… but mentality wise. I am struggling to stay on the plan. And then, when I go off the plan, I struggle to get back on.
I am grappling with a lot of things in life right now. Things that I don’t even write here because I just don’t know where to start. I just recently learned that my mom passed out twice and then was sent to the Emergency room where they found that she has heart issues. She didn’t want me to know about it because she didn’t want me to worry. So I had to hear about this from my brother and he was instructed to tell me only the mild stuff… and I feel angry with her because of that and of course worried about her. And that’s only the tip of the iceberg.
And did I mention the heat is getting to me? It has been H-O-T in my neck of the woods and completely uncomfortable. And because of the heat and the fact that I need to buy a dehumidifier for our basement, I am feeling a bit cranky today. The heat because… well… it’s like hot. And the dehumidifier because well… I don’t want to spend the money on it right now (though it is handy dandy).
Anyway, I am going to try and switch over to core. I feel the need to completely cleanse my body.
How are you all doing? 
Way to go for feeling like you needed a switch up and then doing it! I hope Core gives you exactly what you want and feel you need.
If not, you can always change your mind again. We’re women after all!
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I hope your mom is okay!
When I did WW the first time, it was before the core program. I was the queen of finding low point foods that really were not the best choices from a nutrition perspective. I just am not into veggies:( I think I like the South Beach Diet for the very reasons that you may do well on core – I really have a thing for “bad” carbs. Any time I overeat now, it is grains. Bread and crackers, etc. Never protein or fruit or veggies. Sigh.
Good luck!
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I hope everything is okay with your mom!
I feel like a total 3 year old, when it comes to eating my veggies!
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Recognizing your “hangups” is all part of the growth process. Keep moving in this direction…keep working hard!
Praying for you AND your mom’s health!
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I have never been good at the core but I do try to force myself to meet the “good health guidelines” everyday with the weight watchers so I am making sure I get everything in. Hope the core goes well! Looking forward to reading about it.
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