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Down a pant size!

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It’s summer and time to get some summer clothes.  Shopping for clothes does not hold very enticing prospects for me.  So, in short… I hate shopping for myself.

When you’re a big girl like me, then you understand that the clothes available to you in the real world (as in not online) are pretty bleak and more often than not very unappealing.  Heck, you wouldn’t even expect your mother or grandmother to buy those clothes.  So let’s face it ladies…. shopping kinda sucks when you’re big.  Nine times out of ten, unless you have a cute store tailored to plus sizes, you’re stuck in the world of online shopping.  Online shopping is great, except when it is your only option.  Know what I mean?

So, I went on this task with a heavy heart.  Before trying on any clothes, I was already running different plus-size clothing websites in my mind.  However, I had a bold moment and decided to try on pants that were one dress size smaller.  I expected to be disappointed.

I was wrong.  They fit!  They didn’t fit as well as I would have wanted them to but I was able to slide them on over my rear and button and zip them up.  I felt like an Olympic Gold Medalist at that moment.  Then I felt bad for being sick and being off program for the last 2 weeks.

This no guilt thing is hard to do.  Especially for me.  Because the thing is, I want to be smaller but yet, habits are hard to break.  I always hear people say… “If I can do this… you can do this too!”.  It is sort of cliche in its own charming way.  But I have to admit, that this rings true in my situation.  If I can do it… even half-assed… then anyone can do it!

I’m stoked that i’m down a pant size!  Being down a pant size is like extra inspiration and motivation!

Sickness and staying on program

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With this UTI (which was diagnosed as a severe upper UTI), I have had a problem staying on program.  My appetite hasn’t been up to par.  I’m almost scared to eat anything because certain foods raise the PH levels in my urinary tract.

But today, my fever started to sweat out a little and I felt hungry.  So what did I do?  I ordered pizza.  A comfort food to be sure.  Damnit anyway. :(

I only had a couple of slices but the grease is not agreeing with my system at the moment.  I don’t feel the least bit energized or healthy as I do when I eat fruits, veggies, cheese and lean meats.

I don’t know.  I suppose I could have made a sandwich or opted for  fruit or something.  But pizza just sounded good.  It’s hard not to feel guilty when you have made so many right choices and then BAM!  this happens.

I suppose the food I didn’t eat should outweigh the food that I did eat (since I didn’t eat much during the past few days).

We’ll see what this week’s weigh-in brings.

Urinary tract infection… how fun

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I was gifted with the constant urge to pee and stomach cramps on Mothers Day.  I knew that I had a UTI but the stubborn part of me didn’t want to admit it.  Because, i’m worse than a guy when it comes to going to the doctor.

So I managed to convince myself on Sunday evening that I wasn’t feeling a searing kidney pain.  Nope.  Must be gas.

I woke up on Monday almost in tears but managed to get through most of the day.  My husband nagged me about not going to the doctor on Sunday but then drove me around to every clinic in our area to find out that 90% of them were closed and only 1 remained open.  That one happened to be jam-packed.  I was in no mood to be in a room with dozens of people while trying to convince myself that I really didn’t have to go pee.  It didn’t help of course that stubborn ol’ me decided to wait until 5:30 to drive around and look for an open med-center.  I procrastinate.  It’s what I do best.

Instead, hubby drove me to Walgreens where I picked up AZO test strips (to see if I did in fact have a UTI) and AZO UTI relief medicine.  The relief medicine was not a cure but was supposed to make the pain and symptoms subside.

We got home and I could hardly wait to go pee.  Partly because I had to go for the 100th time that day and I was tired of trying to hold it and partly because I wanted to see the results of the test strip.  It kind of reminded me of a pregnancy test though.  You pee on a stick, wait three minutes, and then look for colors that tell you positive or negative results.

So I peed on the stick and the colors came up deep purple and deep pink almost immediately.  Damn.  So I really did have a UTI.  I took the AZO medicine (which turned my pee a delightful shade of orangish yellow) and some Tylenol and went to bed.  The combination seemed to work right up until 3, when (surprise surprise) I had to pee again.

Finally, the end to this sordid tale came this afternoon.  I went to the nearby med-center (got there before it closed this time), and peed in a cup.  30 minutes later, the doctor wrote me a prescription for an antibiotic.

I stopped at the desk to pay the bill and noticed that I was charged $18 for them to stick the test strip into a cup of urine.  Holy crap.  I paid $10 for a 3-pack of those strips!  I felt a little taken, but then again, it’s the health care industry.  What do I expect?

Part of me wishes that I would have packed up the pee-stick from the night before and handed them that.  Maybe I could have saved $18.