Archive for the ‘Deep thoughts’ Category

Getting back on track is proving to be a little bit of a challenge. Everything needs to be modified from the original plan but only because we have a new house, new community, and it as it seems… new everything. It’s a fresh start for everyone.

I bought Fiberone capsules with the anti-oxidants. I have also found a protein powder that I like (time to start making the green monsters!). And in addition to all of that I have started taking the Juice Festiv (fruit and veggie) supplements again. I’m now going to write down how I feel taking the supplements and research the ingredients. I am so afraid of taking something that turns out to be monumentally bad for me. Know what I mean? So I think this will be the best way.

The week has been a little chilly weather-wise, but I have been able to take a few walks. Plus, we are still moving in, so I know I am expending those calories!

And last but not least, I started journaling my food choices again. I haven’t been writing things down for the past 3-4 weeks and I can tell that it has made a difference. I felt more on track when I had a visual of my daily food lists and caloric intake.

Got an instant life insurance quote online today. I’m trying to see if perhaps I can save us some money. Saving money is always good!

And speaking of insurance…

I have been listening to the new national health care plan that was passed, and i’m not sure I like it. In fact, it kind of scares me because I question as to whether or not it will be truly affordable. And how will the government run this? They suck at running the programs that are already established, so i’m not sure they will be any more efficient running a national health care plan. But that’s just my opinion. For now, it is giving me more drive to take complete control over my own health in the best way possible.

Have an amazing weekend everyone!

Does anyone remember that movie “Vision Quest”? It was a 1980s film starring Matthew Modine and Linda Florentino.

I have actually seen it a couple of times. The first time I came upon it, I thought it was a Lifetime network sort of film that addressed male anorexia. Obviously I caught the scenes where he denied himself food (what I didn’t know at the time was that there was a reason for it — non-anorexia related). I kind of rolled my eyes and turned the television off then.

A few years later, I happened to see a promo for it on TNT. The promo caught my eye as well as the title of the movie. I watched the whole thing. It wasn’t bad! There were some parts of the movie where I was inspired by his relentless perseverance and others where I just wanted him to eat a sandwich and get the girl.

You see, it is as though he had blinders on. The kind of blinders that horses wear in order to block their peripheral vision so that they continue down the path they are supposed to without any visual interference that might hinder their journey. Matthew Modine’s character was the same way. He denied himself food, sex and anything else that hinder his progress or sway him from meeting his ultimate goal.

Oddly enough, when I started this back in December, I figuratively put *my* blinders on.   The only thing I could see was getting to my goal.  At the time, everything was so consistent and predictable.  I found that I *could* shift my focus to my health.

Things have changed up a bit since then and I find that I crave having blinders on.  I crave having a one-on-one session with myself at the gym.  I know that I will be able to get back to that but in the meantime I am fighting like hell to stay on whatever track I can.  Right now, it is a day-by-day thing.

I guess my point is, blinders on or not, I am still on this vision quest.  I am still excited about the progress I am making, even if that progress only consists of teeny-tiny steps at a time.  I am glad that I had that short time to focus only on myself because it has allowed my mind to open up and for me to start making conscious decisions about my health, my self-confidence and my life.

If I can still be successful on this journey while enduring the amount of stress and upsets that I have had over the past few weeks and *STILL* be excited about the process and *STILL* be excited about life and the ever after… then quite frankly…  ANYONE can.

With that said, do you feel that you are on a vision quest?  Have there been times during your journey that you have had your blinders on?  Did you like the feeling?

My husband has a dream of eventually owning a Ferrari or building one. So, he looks for Ferrari parts and prices them up. I told him that in our middle ages, I want to be healthy, happy and drive a hot car!

I am working on the health part. This is certainly making me happy! I just know that the hot car part is not too far away. Of course, it will have to be something that we get once the kids are all grown up and moved out of the house.

What are you working toward as you age?