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Hello fellow bloggers!  How was your weekend?

Mine was filled with lots of interesting stuff.

Date night went off without a hitch.  I managed to stay away from alcohol (i’m a mixed-drink girl) and order the right thing on the menu.  I tried to keep in my mind that I was there to spend a few hours of quiet time with my hubby and that I was not there for a few hours of quiet time with food.  Making the defining line between the two really helped me put things into perspective.

On Saturday morning while I was taking a shower, my 18-month old baby sprained his ankle.  According to Dave, B did an awkward Michael Jackson spin move while trying to get from a sitting position into a standing one and twisted his ankle.  I took him to the emergency med center just to make sure that it his injury didn’t involve a fractured bone or break.  To my relief he simply sprained his ankle.  The doctor assured me that he would be back in action in a couple of days.  B figured out that he would have to go back to crawling if he wanted to move around and play.  So crawl he did until yesterday afternoon.  His ankle was all better, the swelling was gone and he was back in the game.  Babies heal so fast!

I stayed on track with my eating but I did not get any gym time in this weekend.  I was worried about B and so I kept rooted to the spot.  The reality of the situation is that he would have been totally fine in his dad’s care while I went to the gym but I just couldn’t leave him.  We all snuggled on the couch and watched Monsters vs. Aliens on Saturday afternoon.

Speaking of no gym time.  I was on pins and needles on Saturday and Sunday.  It’s like I had all of this extra energy and I didn’t know where to put it.  I cleaned a little, did some homework, and took my daughter to see Princess and the Frog.  We also went grocery shopping afterward.  I still felt anxious at bed time.  Weird.

This morning went well unlike last Monday.  The gym was also relatively quiet.  It made me wonder if a mass of people dropped their New Years resolutions already.

I was rocking out to my new workout mix on my iPod.  I finished up the routine with Madonna’s song:  4 minutes.  Instead of ending slow (as in traditional cool down mode), I went as fast as I could for the last 30 seconds.

Want to know a secret?  Sometimes I get so pumped by the music that I feel like any moment i’m going to breakout some dance moves on the treadmill.

How was your weekend and how has your Monday been so far?

You know what sucks?  Well, i’ll tell you… mommy guilt is what sucks.

Mommy guilt is that nagging feeling you get when you are doing something for yourself instead of your kids.  It is the feeling that you ought to be doing something for your kids (even if everything you do is for your kids).

One thing that hasn’t changed much for me (whether I am working or not working) is mommy guilt.

Lately, I feel as though I am clawing my way through life.  As though I am clawing my way to get to a place where I can have a few minutes to myself and not feel guilty or have my husband give me the stink eye.

I was doing rather well on Weight Watchers and then same ol’ same ol’ happened and I have taken a slide backwards.  I am so far from being on the program right now that I wouldn’t know what it looked like if it jumped up and bit me.

I want to go on bike rides (by myself) at least once a day.  But… I feel like it’s not a possibility because I have kids and when my husband comes home he doesn’t really want to deal with them by himself.

I wish I could somehow break this cycle.  For the moment I am hand-to-mouth again.