I was doing so well… and then life seemed to get in the way.  As it always does.  I have been going through things, anxiety, depression, etc.  I’ll spare you the laundry list.  Mostly because my journey has brought about a lot of feelings and realizations about my personality, choices, etc.

It is an undisputable fact that learning more about yourself is a good thing.  I mean, who doesn’t want to know “who they are” right?

But on some level, i’m starting to deal with things I held down inside of me and burried.

So, I weighed in today and gained 1.5 pounds.  Not a big amount of weight by any means but significant enough to symbolize what i’ve been going through.

All of this comes back to the fact that I need to figure out a better way to handle stress.

One thing I have found on this journey is that I get anxious and stressed out… A LOT. Today, I babysat for a little girl in addition to my own three little ones and everyone was cranky. My immediate response to the crying and crankiness was to eat. I shoved whatever was available into my mouth and didn’t really think about it until the day was done and I was emotionally and physically burned out.

They say that losing weight is 95% mental and 5% about diet and exercise. Meaning that once you get yourself in the right mind, the rest comes easier than it would if you were not in the right mind. I would have to say that I agree with this.

My little girl is rather fond of her pacifier. Whenever she is upset she wants her paci. Sometimes, I feel like my daughter in the way that when I am upset, food pacifies me. Then after eating, I feel better but then shortly after, I feel guilty again. It is an ugly cycle.

What are some ways that you calm yourself down enough to make better choices? I am looking for any helpful hints I can get!